Enough…

I’ve been feeling really jaded about the lifestyle lately. I know I can’t get rid of this part of me but I’m just not sure what role I want it to take in my life any more. I stopped talking to the sub I was seeing.  I didn’t really give him an explanation, just sort of disappeared. I feel bad for it but I don’t really know what the explanation would be…

Part of me adores the idea of a D/s relationship but part of me finds it … I don’t know… just not live-able. For now I’m taking some time off of it all. For now I’m going to try to figure myself out… something I thought I’d already done.